Happy birthday to us!
Last year was quite sad with the loss of our furry friend a few months before your birthday, but this year we’ve somehow bounced back in our own little way. And while we’ll always miss him, we have new reasons to celebrate now.
I’m looking forward to having breakfast outside with the new pups, ordering a delicious lunch, and maybe setting up a dinner plan with some close friends. Or maybe try out the dog park with the furbabies. I’m even looking forward to getting my driver’s license renewed (already have the exam certificate, yay!). If all goes well and I get to finish early at LTO, maybe I can squeeze in time for a haircut! And then this weekend we’ll have a joint celebration (another close friend is celebrating her birthday in a few days) with our coffee group.
It’s not much, but it’s definitely quite some progress from last year — when I dreaded the arrival of this date.
Though fairy tales end after ten pages, our lives do not. We are multi-volume sets. In our lives, even though one episode amounts to a crash and burn, there is always another episode awaiting us and then another. There are always more opportunities to get it right, to fashion our lives in the ways we deserve to have them. Don’t waste your time hating a failure. Failure is a greater teacher than success.Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves
One thing that brings me down though is that I thought there could have been a romantic relationship blossoming by now, but sadly things got stalled for reasons I do not know. I had hoped to be able to talk to a common friend about it earlier, but her husband had an injury. It was just earlier today that I realised how deeply hurt I was with the turn of this event (not the meetup, but my expectation of the connection). I thought I was okay, but apparently, it’s something that I have to process for some more time.
Nonetheless, there’s still much to look forward to in the months to come, our planned overseas business trip, the holidays and my brother’s visit (which means I finally get to meet my nephew!). I wish there were more, but I guess we’ll just have to know what else we want first and work towards that.
That said, here’s my birthday wish: a nourishing relationship that you’ve always wanted but didn’t know how to verbalise.
Someone who would enrich the life we have now through their masculine energy — make it easier, worthwhile, funnier, happier and more loving. And someone whom we could also do the same for. Someone who is kind, smart, funny, and loves animals and nature. Someone tall, with kind eyes and a mischievous smile and who takes care of his health as much as his finances. Someone who is open to learning and is fascinated with the wonders of the universe. Someone who is sure that he wants to be in a relationship with us. Someone with that familiar, comforting energy we’ve always been looking for (and know we have been looking for).
I wish that you take more time to savour what you have — because life is good. It’s been good to us and has been providing us with what we need. We have a good job, a great boss, and a good work setup. And while things may get stressful at times, it’s still way better than most of the jobs you’ve had in the past. And it has provided for us even during this time of the pandemic.
It has also given us a lot of learnings which are all but pure potential right now. If you want, we can pick up where we left off in the Spanish classes, establish our yoga classes bit by bit, or start off with new things to do, like a wellness blog, a pet care blog, an INFJ blog, or something else. I hope you choose and run away with your chosen idea. Your content writing has already produced results for our client, it’s time we made it work for us too.
In terms of healing, I wish you patience. We’ve understood so much about ourselves in the past few months. Keep growing and giving yourself the kindness you deserve. It’s what the journal and our gift of so many stickers are for!
I hope you will go out and let stories, that is life, happen to you, and that you will work with these stories… water them with your blood and tears and your laughter till they bloom, till you yourself burst into bloom.Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves
Lastly, know that you are never alone. Sometimes it feels like that — that you’re bearing a lot of responsibilities because you’re surrounded by passive individuals and people who get easily offended. But we’ve got this. For decades now, we always have had, even from the very beginning. There is an inner fire in us that has always seen us through. It is seeing us through now and it will see us through in the future. Have faith, keep growing up while rooting down — and let’s keep writing letters. I love you.